GAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!

I was JUST about to click "submit" to send my post, and BAM! Dial up disconnected!!

I hate the phone company! I hate them ALL!!! Long story short...it's the transplants here that have clogged our system, so EVERYTHING had to be replaced at the substation...it could be another day before I'm back...MAYBE!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

I'll need a week to catch up on blog reading & posting alone!! Someone shoot me please!

That's all for now...don't want to risk being bumped off again! Damn!

i'm still alive...though my highspeed internet is down...ugh!! i'm in dial up hell right now! so as soon as my internet provider "upgrades" in "2" more business days, i'll be back with a scathing attack on the phone company, dial up internet, and anything else i can vent about!!! grrrrr!!!!!

                   Today was one of those days when I really just wanted to stay inside and do nothing. Of course the last TWO days have been the same way, but hey--that's what mini-vacations are for, right?! Well, my plans for today hit a bit of a snag when I looked out the window and saw my neighbor Todd & his wife Christi going back and forth from my yard to theirs. They were valiantly attempting to clean out some serious underbrush between the two yards----and not accomplishing very much! I felt sorry for them as I watched each of them struggling with the various branches and masses of briars that they were trying to clear----so as I started to close the blinds, the phone rings. It was Chris the roomie---he was on the way home with what's called a brush hog and wanted me to alert Todd & Christi to this. Curses! I just KNEW what this meant! I was going to be recruited to HELP! There went my plans for complete laziness!!

               

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                Sure enough...within 30 minutes I was right in the middle of the mass of brambles, branches, & assorted outside creatures! I didn't mind so much because you would be amazed at how much of that crap you can get rid of with a brush hog, but unfortunately we were having a bit of a weather dilemma here in Central North Carolina today---winds that were sustained at around 30 MPH with gusts up to 45 MPH!!   Trust me when I tell you, it does NOT feel good when you get hit in the face with a branch full of briars at 30 MPH!! It's also not fun to walk along minding your own business and have to flee from the cover of a hot tub that has become airborn and is heading straight for you!!   Thankfully it didn't get me, but only because I had the good sense to duck!!

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                IN OTHER NEWS:

  ---> I'm finding that I'm in much better spirits the last couple of days. It looks like things are going to work themselves out in the manner that I want them to as far as financial stuff goes. I'm relieved to say the least! I've decided though that I'm going to have to take some steps to better handle these types of crises when they come up. I've got a couple of ideas in mind, but I don't want to jinx them so I won't mention them right now.....

-----> Quite a few years ago, I joined a site called Classmates.com---I figured it would be a neat way to reconnect with some friends from high school that I hadn't seen or talked to for many years. Most of the site back then was free and I actually did reconnect with some old friends which was very cool! Well, a few years ago this site started charging for things such as being able to read your messages or read anything on the message boards. Naturally, I said "screw that" and just stopped going to the site and instead joined "MySpace". Get this--I've found (and been found) more old friends on MySpace than I could have even imagined on that site! Pretty cool, huh? So one day for kicks, I posed a question for the folks over at Classmates--"why should anyone pay to be a member of your site when they can hook up with old friends on MySpace?" Their response? Nothing. Boneheads.
          

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                    Well, that's about all for now! Hopefully I won't spend my last day of my mini-vacation fighting my way through brambles & underbrush--but somehow I think I will. *sigh

                   So I decided a couple of weeks back that I was going to take a very well deserved break---so I'm off today & Monday--a nice little "mini-vacation". I'm actually glad that I timed it like this because I've gotten a LOT accomplished today!

                    The first thing that I accomplished was finding out that my bonehead attorney actually HAD done what he was supposed to---only WITHOUT letting ME in on his plan. I also discovered that probably PART of the reason that I hadn't heard anything from him is because he's now the attorney for a VERY VERY ****VERY****high profile client---one who is actually quite hated throughout the country these days. Apparently the client is being sued by so many people that he had to file his OWN case of bankruptcy. Of course this is really no excuse, but oh well.

                    I also succeeded in mailing off my taxes---for the first time in about 5 years I'm actually getting them done EARLY!! Not only that, but for the first time in quite a number of years, I'm getting a REFUND from BOTH federal and state! Of course I don't have the money YET, so I'm not going to get excited just now.

                   

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                    "Conchetta" at work was pretty upset with me yesterday. Well, let me rephrase that...she wasn't upset with ME as much as she was upset about the fact that she had wanted to take today off but was denied because I put in for it first. Thankfully she didn't ask me to change my plans because then she WOULD have been pissed at me when I said, "NO".....

                    I had to attend another dinner last night with some co-workers from the office and one of the guys from the field. It wasn't too bad, but I'd still rather have been doing something else. I'm just not the schmoozing kind I guess---which is what these dinners are supposed to be about as far as I'm concerned.

                    

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                    That's about it for now---a couple more errands and I'm done for the day!  

It came to my attention late last night that my last couple of entries had some folks that I know in "real" life pretty upset. I don't mean upset as in "angry", I mean upset as in "terrified"......


If you can believe THIS--apparently my ability to express my feelings in the things that I write is a little TOO good. These folks were worried that I was getting ready to PERMANENTLY  (if you know what I mean) take care of some of the issues that have been going on in my life lately. Two hours on a 3 way call finally prompted me to just delete the last couple of entries that I made on here so that I could end any speculation that I was about to do myself in.


Having re-read what I wrote, I can see where there might be reason for some concern---and I'll admit that there have been times in my life that the idea of just blasting myself into the after-life has occured to me, but there are a few reasons why I would never do something like that:

• I have a brother and sister who would NOT be able to handle losing their brother after having already lost both of their parents with 18 months of each other. I've also got an aunt that I'm very close to that would blame herself--this aunt promised my mom on her deathbed that she'd look after my brother, sister, and me.  Basically, she would feel like she failed in her promise to my mom.
  

• I've got a roommate who would forever traumatized by coming home one evening and finding my dead body!

• There's really no viable method of buying the farm---guns are WAY too messy---pills could easily turn my whole body into mush, which is pretty gross---I'm terrified of car crashes, so driving into a tree isn't an option---

• Life insurance doesn't pay out for suicides, which would lay the burden of burying me onto my brother & sister

SO-----
I'm OK----
I PROMISE!!

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